I haven't blogged for a while but I find that I have to be careful what I blog about. THIS BLOG IS ABOUT ME! It is not about anyone else. I am pointing the finger at no one but me. I have been grumpy and snippy lately. I am not sure why. The person that pays for that is obviously Clyde. I have got to be better about that. I have no right to act like that. I am not even sure why I am. I think in part it is because I am disappointed in me for some of my failures. I have several goals that I try and accomplish every day and if I don't I guess I tend to take them out on myself and him. I need to just let it go or budget my time better. I also am not doing very well as a Visiting Teacher. Let me suffice it say that I see all of my sisters but one because of her animals. Her house makes me physically ill. Because of that I have had to be creative to visit her. For a while I let my partner take over - which was not nice. Now she is no longer my partner. We will leave that there.
I need to somehow get back into a schedule. During the school year, I know that I will get up and teach seminary, fix Clyde breakfast, etc. Somehow my summer schedule has never been fixed. Maybe that is what is missing. I am not scheduled - knowing that at 7:30 am everyday I will be walking or 9:00 a.m. I will be doing my floor exercises. Would I be happier if I regimented out my day - knowing what each block of time would bring? Would I feel less like a failure and be less grouchy then? It is certainly worth a try because what I am doing now is just not working!
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